Personal

The words were the first thing that hurt me
No one prepares you for a love that was never given to you
I grew up thinking I made a mistake
And I wasn't old enough to tell myself no

I heard a bang on the wall before an 'I love you'
The order doesn't affect the product, but I never feel like I come first
I live on alert, don't look for answers on what's wrong with me
Fear doesn't have pretty views and it's been my home for a long time
Sometimes I feel so alone
And even though I laugh on the outside, inside I'm against the waves

Before gold, I want to toughen up
To see if I stop waiting for an 'I love you'
I run from everything, staying still is scary
I close the lid and always end up catching my fingers

No one told me what I needed to hear
Now I'm dying to do things that mean something more
I don't understand, who made me someone with so much to give?
If those who saw what I have inside ultimately decided to fly away

I heard a bang on the wall before an 'I love you'
The order doesn't affect the product, but I never feel like I come first
I live on alert, don't look for answers on what's wrong with me
Fear doesn't have pretty views and it's been my home for a long time
Sometimes I feel so alone
And even though I laugh on the outside, inside I'm against the waves
I don't trust, I move forward with my own shadow
Because there are friends who don't save you, they tighten the noose (Cupid)