Querencia

How hard to love you like this
With you but without you
Loving your body but you light-years away from me
I don't want to know why
Why risk you answering me
I don't know
I prefer to suspect you in other arms
And break into a thousand pieces
Than to continue dead on my feet

How to break
Through your indifference
How to overcome
This bad longing for you
Longing for you
Longing for you

I look at you but you're not there
I don't even see a dagger behind
Ready to strike me with a never again
Your lukewarm letting go
Is nothing more than a slow
Way to disappear
A way to start the escape
Through this suicidal
Pleasure simulation

If I guessed a no from you
It would mean something happened
Any nonsense, even a crime, what do I know
And so I would be capable
Of ending the infinite war
Of this peace
How hard to see the face of death
Every time I try to see you
Beyond your mask