el control

I
I've always been good at hiding it
Hoping that I could heal it
But I got lost along the way

So tired of always judging myself
All I wanted was to feel better
And for a moment not to feel
No

No
I can't silence the voice
That keeps repeating where to go
What to say

No
I think I've lost control
I'm not the one choosing where to go
What to feel

In the lyrics, I hide what can't be seen
Before it comes back and fills the cup again
I try not to drown, but I'm lacking courage
I tried to stop it, but it flooded my insides

And I know it's gonna stay
'Cause there's no turning back now

No
I can't silence the voice
That keeps repeating where to go
What to say

No
I think I've lost control
I'm not the one choosing where to go
What to feel