Causa da Morte

It wasn't the weather, it wasn't the world, it wasn't chance
I was the one who took us apart, step by step
I watched the sparkle in your eyes turn to a dull gray
And I blamed you for not smiling, what a shame!
I was the cold when you asked for warmth
I was the wall when you asked for value
I called you crazy when you asked for attention
I murdered your self-esteem with my inaction
You screamed silently, I pretended to be deaf
You gave me a thousand chances, and I asked for the thousandth and first time
I absorbed your light to try and ignite my own
And I left you in the dark, crying alone

And now I bleed twice as much as you bled
Because the penny hasn't dropped, the penny has plummeted
I am the crime, the scene, the bullet, and the trigger
The man who killed his own brilliance
You left to survive, I understand the truth
Far from me, you found your freedom
And I was left here, trapped by my own fate
The report confirms: I was the cause of death

It's funny how big the house feels without you
The echo of my voice comes back to hit me
I see your things in the corner, gathering dust
But the memory is clear, it's alive, it's whole
I try to blame fate, to say it wasn't meant to be
But deep down I know it's my own fault
An emotional parasite disguised as shelter
Who turned the woman of the night into his worst enemy
They say time heals, but time is cruel
He only shows me my role in 4K
From the villain of the story that you'll tell while smiling
Saying: Thank goodness I'm getting out of that bad situation

I wanted to ask for your forgiveness, but forgiveness is not enough
For the one who set you sane and then drove you crazy
There's no excuse that will glue the broken pieces of a mirror back together
There's no going back for those who have turned love into a nightmare

I spent nights wondering, what if it were different?
But the answer is cold, standing right in front of me
Don't hate me for letting you go
Hate me for taking so long to disappear
Because the worst punishment isn't the loneliness that consumes me
It's knowing that, if I were you
I, too, would have run away from my name