Pecadora

Am I okay being wrong
That I’ve normalized silence
We got used to lying
They say they saw us, but that’s not true

And I love it when we’re alone
Where no one knows and everyone ignores
I’d freeze time and pause the hours
Without the noise of people that devours

I know you deserve
Someone who won’t hide you
Who’ll shout your name
And bring it out of the shadows

What’s going on? What changed?
I got confused by the mirror
I don’t see myself in the reflection
The same face and the same voice
But with something inside
That changed color

What will my friends say and what will my exes say?
Will I finally sleep without stress one night?
Anxiety eats me up and I switch roles
Going from the good girl to the bad one again

What will mom say? What will dad say?
I wonder if they’re asking if they did something wrong
Maybe for a little while I’ll pretend
But not too long because I’m about to explode

I know you deserve
Someone who won’t hide you
Who’ll shout your name
And bring it out of the shadows

What’s going on? What changed?
I got confused by the mirror
I don’t see myself in the reflection
The same face and the same voice
But with something inside
That changed color

And even though it wasn’t me
Who loved you first
I’ll love you better
You give color to black and white
If loving you is a sin
I’ll become a sinner