Nevermind

Nothing ever feels enough and I start to suspect
My highest points
Are just a mirage
And I focus on what’s still missing

I talk to my teenage self and listen to Nevermind
You left so fast
So fast that I barely had
The time to miss you

Never, never do I repeat it almost always
My gaze isn’t so intense anymore
You wouldn’t even recognize me now
Hate me, hate me if it makes you stronger
If you saw me outside my element
I know you’d start to shake

I’ve gotten used to saying your name without meaning to
Over and over again
I know I’ve partly earned it
Far from understanding, I wanted to respond
With a giant love scene
Let me know if there’s something he offers
That I can’t give you

You know I always tend to exaggerate
But it’s so gruesome what I think
That no one can even imagine
A tiny part of what’s there

I’ve gotten used to saying your name without meaning to
Over and over again
I know I’ve partly earned it
Far from understanding, I wanted to respond

With a giant love scene
Let me know if there’s something he offers
That I can’t give you
That I can’t give you