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I left school for my grandma's place
She asked: What did you do at school?
I told her I had a great time
Because I was playing in the yard with my friends

In the afternoon, I went back out to play
A flat ball, that’s your biggest problem and
I don’t even want Christmas to come
Because every year I’m missing more people on Christmas Eve

I saw a cigarette and said: I won’t smoke
And now with a cigarette, I’m saying: I’ll quit
I also saw a kiss and said it grossed me out
And now locked in my room alone, thinking about my ex

As a kid, I was always wishing to be grown
Now that I’m grown, I want to be a kid again
Live every moment and watch what you wish for
Because the day it comes true, you won’t be able to go back

I wanted friends to play in the street and
Not feel alone every moment
And now that I’m grown, I don’t want anyone
Because everyone will leave over time

When things are good, you’ll have lots of people
Go out partying, you’ll have five hundred
But tell me later how many care
If you don’t leave your house because you’re living in hell

I want to go back to when I rang the bell
Played hide and seek and kicked the balls
When I went to school in my cleats
Collected tokens, not sad depressions

I’d wake up ready to take on the world
Now I go to bed because the world’s eating me
With thirty from grandma, I’d grab a ball
And now to forget her, I grab thirty pollen balls

Now I think about throwing in the towel
I did before, with my parents at the beach
I also dreamed of being a soccer player
And I got benched for crossing the lines

On New Year’s, give grandma a kiss
In 2010, watching Spain in the World Cup
When Robben faced the goalie
And now the goalie’s facing me because he wants me to leave

I left school for my grandma's place
And she was sick, couldn’t make food
I didn’t know anything because of my innocence
Not knowing the consequences that could cost her life

If she was the one who saw me born
Why do I have to see her time running out?
One day your grandma’s waiting in the hospital
And the next, you’re in the hospital crying her goodbye

My friends used to come pick me up at home
Now to go out, you have to keep an eye on WhatsApp
The memory was a goal from the squad
Not a party story to show off your fake life

Whoever tells you to love yourself is all plastic
With alcohol, everyone changes
You’re left crying when your girl lets you down
What can you expect? You met her drunk

I was excited for Christmas to come
Thought the Three Kings were real and
Now I don’t want to look under the tree
Because I’ve been gifted depression and anxiety

Every year I asked for lots of gifts
My mom told me I’d been bad
But I left cookies for the Three Kings
And now life gives me a reality check

Gave everything for someone who abandons you
Without her, I couldn’t live, but now you cry
What’s the point of giving everything for someone?
If later that someone wants to leave you alone

We’re left broken in the room
While you forgot about me after half an hour
You used to be happy with cartoons
And now you’re not animated because of someone else

Grandpa, thanks a lot for taking care of me
You barely remember, and to me, you were the greatest
I don’t know when I’ll say my last I love you
I hope it’s just before you leave

Before, I went to the fair to ride
Now to drink, because there’s a park next door
I apologize to my past self
Because the candy money goes to bottles and smokes

I left school for my grandma's place
But my grandma was in the hospital
She didn’t ask: How was school?
And even if I told her, I couldn’t answer

I went back to play in the yard with my friends
But that afternoon, I wouldn’t play again
Enjoy the moment with the people you love
Because later you don’t want to cry remembering.