Malevaje

Tell me, for god's sake, what have you given me,
That I've changed so much,
I don't know who I am anymore?
The shady character, a stranger,
Looks at me without understanding...
Sees me losing the image
Of the tough guy that yesterday
Shined in action...
Don't you see that I'm in a bind,
Defeated and tied up
In your heart?

I saw you strutting proudly
With such a deep and sensual rhythm
That just seeing you made me lose
Faith, courage,
The desire to show off.
You haven't even left me a cigarette behind
From that tough and fierce past...
All I need now to complete
Is to go to church and kneel down to pray!

Yesterday, afraid to kill,
Instead of fighting
I started running...
I saw myself in the shadows or dead;
Thought of not seeing you and trembled...
If I, -who never backed down-
At night, anxious,
Lock myself up to cry!...
Tell me, for god's sake, what have you given me,
That I've changed so much,
I don't know who I am anymore?