No Puedo Evitarlo

I know where you are
Not where I'm going
I'm not gonna search
I keep floating
I can't stop thinking
I can't help but hurt myself more
I can't stop crying
I know where you are
Crazy and I don't want to think about it
I haven't stopped crying
'Cause I can't help it

I love you and I hate myself for it
Life's a bitch, it drives me crazy
I spit in its face then I bite back
I'm failing myself every time I come back
I feel good if I come back
I think of you at 6, can't even sleep
I flip my life and break it
I put your skin on your body

Eh hum
'Cause I can't help it
Eh hum hum
'Cause I can't help it
Eh, eh hum hum
'Cause I can't help it
E e hum hum
'Cause I can't help it
Hum hum

The bed untouched
The mini bar empty
I smoke two by the window until the sun comes up
Another morning I'm alone
'Cause I don't trust
I just wait for another hit to warm me up

I'm sorry, I can't help it
I hide even though I feel
Like I'm going back to that same place
It seems the same even though I'm stuck in the same
It doesn't taste the same, frozen
Even though I have the same next to me
Next to an abyss, next to me
Girl, that's how I felt, now I don't even trust, anchored
I jump into the void and I'm out

I know where you are
Not where I'm going
I'm not gonna search
I keep floating
I can't stop thinking
I can't help but hurt myself more
I can't stop crying
I know where you are
Crazy and I don't want to think about it
I haven't stopped crying
'Cause I can't help it

I love you and I hate myself for it
Luck's a bitch, it gives me horns
I grab it by the neck and I don't let go
I'm thinking of you every time I come back
I wrap that kilo in tape
I close the box and send it off
Everything I have is zero, babe
Here we'll die like bandits

Eh hum hum
'Cause I can't help it
Eh, eh hum hum
'Cause I can't help it
E e hum hum
'Cause I can't help it
Hum hum