Querido Diablo

Dear devil
Give me back the soul I gave you that night
I don’t want to be this stranger anymore
That I asked you for so many times
Let me see my mother
On that cold January when I lost her
Just give me a miserable moment
So I can give her the kiss I never gave

Dear devil
Let me be free
I’m dying and wandering
And every time I want to kill myself
I end up stuck in another failed attempt
Put a noose around my neck again
And I swear I’ll climb up to her roof
I’ll call her and leave a voice message
And then I’ll strangle myself

Dear devil
I’m tired of your hands
Being the ones that coerce me
Of the evil you inject into my veins
Leading me to my bad actions
And this anxiety that eats me inside
Tempts me to self-harm
Until the doctor

Dictates the end of that raven
In his notes
And in the end, he was right, I ruin everything I touch
Because my fingers are daggers
That pierce hearts
Without reason or rhyme
I’m running a thousand revolutions
I don’t expect you to forgive me
But how much!?
How much longer will I silence my cries?
I knew it hurt, but I didn’t think it hurt this much
All of this is my fault
And the monster I carry inside
That feeds off
The pain in my song
I bow my head to the sky

For all those things I did wrong along the way
And even though I know I’ve acted like a jerk
This jerk hides a poor heart of glass
That no matter how much I deny it
Love, for humans
Has always been necessary and vital
If it were up to me, I’d sing in your name for life
But who would sing at my funeral?
From love to hate, there’s much more than a step
If I end up fucking with hate because you’re not here and I want you

And the problem is mine for brushing against other lips
Wanting them to be yours
Because I’m not being honest with myself
I’ve never stopped to imagine a life without your caresses
That’s why I can’t get over it
But I swear you’ll leave my head
The day I kill David double 0
And end the pain and agony
And be able to give all the love I never got
Can you imagine?

And forget every memory I have with her
No matter how much I don’t want to, it’s burned in my retinas
It’s not that I always sing about the same thing
I want to give the spotlight to the story of a killer
Who’ll lift you to the clouds
Just to let you fall
Dressed in black
And pretends to be Marina