Trauma de Abandono

Yes, I joke about my childhood
To pretend it doesn’t hurt
My easement passes by rudeness
Because I want to tell people everything
Yes, I’ve thrown up lunch
With two fingers down my throat
And I’ve liked the most dangerous boy
I was good in the mess, I’ve had it so much

Yes, I lacked a father
And everyone laughed at my dreams
I'm one of those who don’t say a thing when I leave
And if you hurt me I forgive you
Yes, I'm also one of those who get exalted
To defend an idea
I say that I don’t lack the confidence
But the internet made me believe that I'm ugly

Make the violins play, I'm the sad story
That we’ve seen in movies, I'm the one who survives
I just wanted to give my children the love I never had
I just never lacked poetry because I drowned myself in books

I made a joke out of everything so I wouldn’t lose sleep
I think it’s today that you let go of me, I have abandonment trauma
I was the sad story, but I couldn’t chose
The end doesn’t exist, that one I can write
That one I can write

Yes, I have anxiety
And sometimes I think it’s the anxiety that has me
I'm even one of those who says that she misses someone
But should and even would like to call my mother more
Yes, I cross myself in capicuas
And I hold my breath under tunnels to make a wish
To ask the stars
Or the Moon for a life with less fight
And a little more kisses

Make the violins play, I'm the sad story
That we’ve seen in movies, I'm the one who survives
I just wanted to give my children the love I never had
I just never lacked poetry because I drowned myself in books

I made a joke out of everything so I wouldn’t lose sleep
I think it’s today that you let go of me, I have abandonment trauma
I was the sad story but I couldn’t chose
The ending doesn’t exist, that one I can write
That one I can write