Je Voulais Être Une Telle Perfection Pour Toi!

The grass had that vague, familiar smell of pee, sweet earth, and rot
Do you remember?
The walls shone like public restrooms
Paris opened up before us like a treasure chest
No more nun's life, I'm defrocked
It's so good, all three of you together, they made you laugh
How I loved it, him and you, even when you saw each other without me
When I was gone, I took up too much space, even for myself I took up too much space

(I wanted to be such perfection for you)
I wanted to be such perfection for you
(I wanted to be such perfection for you)
I wanted to be such perfection for you

I'm not going anywhere, I'm not running away
I won't move until sunrise if you ask me to
I wanted to be good so that I would be loved, brave so that I would be admired
I jumped off the train for Dad
I kept watch for my brother even when I was terrified
I regret that you didn't see me when I was a child
I was violent too, I I smashed my brother's head with a pine cone
I hid in a tree and aimed at him because he was making fun of me
I even killed for you, I became an assassin

(I wanted to be such perfection for you)
I wanted to be such perfection for you
(I wanted to be such perfection for you)
I wanted to be such perfection for you

I looked at you so hard in the dark, you should have jumped out of your sleep
Sleep, you're annoying me, I hate you, you killed me, did you kill others?
Don't corpses come back at night to lift your eyelids?
I used to make you laugh, I wanted to be the one you loved best
No, I won't wake you from your selfish sleep, to tell you what?