Pretended (T.O.P)

Yo, this is the song for my ex-girlfriend, alright?
I promise I ain't gonna hold back, babe
I'm gonna give it all to you
Let’s go

I’m pretending like I’m fine
But what should I say?
I’m pretending like I’m fine
Another day goes by, oh oh
It’s been a while since I called you, just wanted to say I’m sorry
I called just to say this, and I’m even more sorry
Honestly, I don’t have much to say, but I’m rambling
I’m just curious if you’re doing okay
Why do you ask what I need?
Had another drink, huh?
I hate that one word, pretending to be fine
It’s a forced conversation
On the line, you’re not saying a thing
My pride is stuck, what’s really important?
(I want to run to you, but still)
I’m struggling here, trying to act cool, pretending like I’m fine
(If I could just let go of my regrets, if I could just shake off the hate)
I know you’re the only one
Late to realize, I’m sorry, my bad

I’m pretending like I’m fine
But what should I say?
I’m pretending like I’m fine
Another day goes by, oh oh

I’m pretending like I’m fine
Saying nothing’s wrong
Trying to erase your traces
I’m getting used to it, oh oh

I need you to come back
Honestly, I want to say it
But it’s heavy on my heart
Falling, where the hell are you? I can’t forget you
(Why?) I still remember your birthday
Oh no, I don’t believe
My smile turned sad, people
Felt like we were close, like we knew each other
Late-night calls, back then we had so much to say
So how are you doing? Is it a lot?
I still worry about the promises I couldn’t keep
Are you worried too?
Do you stay up like I do? I feel worse about it
You said I was too much, what’s the problem? I’m still clumsy
Yeah, it’s a foolish late regret (where you at?)
What happens if you leave?

I’m pretending like I’m fine
But what should I say?
I’m pretending like I’m fine
Another day goes by, oh oh

I’m pretending like I’m fine
Saying nothing’s wrong
Trying to erase your traces
I’m getting used to it, oh oh

You’re with another guy, right?
Why are you talking to me now?
Your future was more important, right?
(Just say I’m a liar)
You did what you wanted, so why now?
What are you saying? I don’t get it
Just say I’m a liar
Let’s just pretend I didn’t hear and end it

You don’t know how much I’ve thought about it, staying up all night
I’m saying goodbye while making you cry
You don’t know how much I’ve thought about it, staying up all night
This song doesn’t even cover half my pain, oh oh oh

You don’t know how much I’ve thought about it, staying up all night
I’m saying goodbye while making you cry
You don’t know how much I’ve thought about it, staying up all night
This song doesn’t even cover half my pain, oh oh oh