A Vide

I whistled the water from the red roses you brought me yesterday
Hoping that finally something would change, inside my little stone heart
I jumped into puddles that I mistook for pools
I made dishes, took hits just to feel it pound in my chest

I’ve tried everything to fill the void
I cried fake tears, laughed just to pretend
I soaked my heart with stateless tears
There’s nothing inside, I’m scared to love you

Empty
Pierced through and through, empty
Lost in my bathtub, dry
Like a cloud in Varaville
Empty
Pierced through and through, empty
Lost in my bathtub, dry
Like a cloud in Varaville

I drank until dawn this ocean that separates us
What does love even matter?
It can’t be that hard to swallow
When I see all these people passing by, looking like they love each other so much
I tell myself my little ice heart will thaw come spring

I’ve tried everything to fill the void
I cried fake tears, laughed just to pretend
I soaked my heart with stateless tears
There’s nothing inside, I’m scared to love you

Empty
Pierced through and through, empty
Lost in my bathtub, dry
Like a cloud in Varaville
Empty
Pierced through and through, empty
Lost in my bathtub, dry
Like a cloud in Varaville

I love you emptily, to the point of hating myself
I love you emptily, to the point of hating myself
To the point of hating myself

Empty
Pierced through and through, empty
Lost in my bathtub, dry
Like a cloud in Varaville
Empty
Pierced through and through, empty
Lost in my bathtub, dry
Like a cloud in Varaville