Despierto

Again
I start burying myself just like yesterday
I start thinking that this time
It will be different

Sometimes I hate so much what I am
I wish
To move the hands of the clock
To break them

Pause everything
Break everything
Burn everything
What's behind

Erase my name from that time
Change the story that haunts me
Burn the dreams that don't see me
Drown the fears that always live

Dying
With my desires
Living
With what I feel

Sometimes I hate so much what I am
I wish
To move the hands of the clock
To break them

Pause everything
Break everything
Burn everything
What's behind

And I'm fighting against myself
I don't even know well who I am
I'm silencing my thoughts
And I don't even know if that's good
I try

I swear, I swear I try
But I can't
I just want to keep running
And realize that this is a dream
From which I wake up