¿Por donde empezar?

I don't know where to start
if I don't know
how I
ended up
here
I don't know what I should know
if I don't know what I shouldn't do
I hear their screams and I lock myself in here
I know she's not doing well....

I don't know if I want to think
because living causes so much pain
I don't know which example to follow
if I don't know in whom to put my faith
my mother talks to me about religion
but there's sadness in her heart
she doesn't know the insecurity
of not being able to find solid ground
to walk on

Anxiety is not for me
because I'm so fragile that I could break
my mind starts to falter
fear won't let me sleep
I invent dreams to be happy
but deep down I know I'm not....

she doesn't know the insecurity
of not being able to find solid ground
to walk on...
and continue here!!!!!!!!

I don't know where to start
if I don't know
how I
ended up
here.......