Un enfant pour toujours

A child forever
Forever a child
By night and by day
An absence now
A child forever
Rowing against the tide
Deep in a yard
From deep within my blood

At the heart of my story
Like a tearing apart
Like a swing
Above the void
Like a tragedy
Like a silhouette
By day and by night
That stirs and watches me

And me, I can run, leave and come back
Ask a thousand questions, look myself in the face
Who is that in the mirror?
What happened?
Who did I replace?
How do I break free?

A child forever
Forever a child
An eternal return
A scent of accident
First dream in reverse
Asking for reparation
I hear like a drum
I hear like a name

A cry for help
A grief that overwhelms me
And circles around me
A voice in the space
An unjustifiable drama
For a father, a mother
Inconsolable hearts
That I don’t know what to do with

And me, I can run, leave and come back
Ask a thousand questions, look myself in the face
Who is that in the mirror?
What happened?
Who did I replace?

This child forever, this morning I told him
Let me have my path, I need to live my life
Let me have my loves, let me have my friends
Your ghost is too heavy, sorry but that’s how it is
This child forever, this morning I told him
The road is too short to be chased
I leave you at the crossroads of memory, of forgetfulness
I won’t turn back and I leave you here

And I leave you here
And I leave you here
And I leave you here
A child forever
Forever a child