Je pardonne

I forgive to forget
I forgive to breathe
To stop stirring
Knives in my wounds
I forgive to make space
To let the anxieties slide
And to recognize the child
That I was in the ice

I forgive against all odds
Rain, snow, wind
To escape the grip
Dark years, gray souls
I forgive the past, the future
For the screams and for the whispers
So that those who hurt me
They are left alone with their dirty hands

I forgive rightly and wrongly
Bitterness is not my home
Anger, but not resentment
Anger, but not bitterness
I forgive and I want to hope
May I also be forgiven
I lose you, I lose me
But remember everything

That I was made fun of
For my face, for my voice
For my risks and for my choices
Of course it stays there
But I gather the crumbs
And I forgive loudly
Nothing haunts me, nothing stops me
No hard feelings, no debt

And for everything I wasn't told
All: I love you, all thank you
Who stayed through
From a throat or in the air
Everything I wasn't given
I went to get him
I forgive absence
To lack and silence

I forgive rightly and wrongly
Bitterness is not my home
Anger, but not resentment
Anger, but not bitterness
I forgive and I want to hope
May I also be forgiven
I lose you, I lose me
But remember everything

I forgive right and left
To experience the light
Days that are born, days that die
Every spark, every glow

I forgive and I want to hope
May I also be forgiven
I lose you, I lose me
But remember everything

I lose you, I lose me
But remember everything