I Don't Wanna do This Anymore

XXXTENTACION's song "I Don't Wanna do This Anymore" delves into the complexities of a troubled relationship and the artist's personal struggles with self-love and acceptance. The lyrics convey a sense of urgency and confusion, as the artist grapples with his feelings for someone he cares about deeply, while also battling his own inner demons.

The song opens with a confession of love and a portrayal of intimacy, suggesting a deep connection with the person he is addressing. However, the repetition of 'you don’t wanna' highlights a reluctance or inability to fully engage in the relationship, possibly due to emotional numbness or fear of commitment. This refrain also reflects the artist's perception of the other person's hesitance, creating a sense of mutual uncertainty and emotional distance.

The latter part of the song touches on the artist's personal struggles, revealing a lack of self-love and a desire for external validation ('I don’t wanna love myself, I’m praying that they all love me'). This vulnerability is juxtaposed with the recurring theme of flight, which could symbolize a desire to escape from the situation or from his own feelings. The minimalist repetition of 'no' at the end of the song emphasizes a sense of resignation and exhaustion, as if the artist is tired of the emotional turmoil and the cycle of seeking love and acceptance from others.