El brillo

I say I've moved on until I really do
But I don't know how long I can keep up this act
It's easier to pretend you want it when you don't
Than to pretend you don't when you actually do

I'm sorry, but I can't forget
The language of your hands when you held me close
The voice you use when you talk to your dog
And that killer look you give when you're mad, hey

From loving me to making me your lover
What a less-than-elegant way to end it
There's no amnesia for a life ahead
And my mind's gone back to Venice, and I see myself drowning

My family says you were good for me
I don't blame them, I believed it too
And even though the wound still stings
Nothing hurts forever

I'm gonna bring the shine back to my eyes
I'm gonna be myself again
I'm gonna show some love again
To the people who once gave it to me
Today I'm going out to drink with my friends
I'm gonna be myself again
I'm gonna sing loud that chorus
From that song that hurt me so much

How do I stop thinking about you all the time?
When you show up in the incense, in the clouds
And the bad weather, in the fields, the rooms
The strobe lights at the concerts
The golden cats sold at the markets
The croissants, the grandparents still in love, walking by the port

I see us in the windows of real estate
Looking at houses without a dime
I still see you everywhere
But in none of those places do I have you
They say I need to move on
But all I know is how to look inward

My family says you were good for me
I don't blame them, I believed it too
And even though the wound still stings
Nothing hurts forever

I'm gonna bring the shine back to my eyes
I'm gonna be myself again
I'm gonna show some love again
To the people who once gave it to me
Today I'm going out to drink with my friends
I'm gonna be myself again
I'm gonna sing loud that chorus
From that song that hurt me so much