O Meu Lacrimejar

When the tears dry out
The most important thing is to remember we’re still alive
And every breath we take in the middle of our fights
Are steps we walk, speeding up our own demise

When I can’t find myself
When nothing seems to make sense anymore
When grief comes and plays like my closest friend
All I think is – life don’t tell a story in the end

Some come and go, and that just fuels my rage
I just know once upon a time I was happier on this stage
I had peace, though not everything I ever wished
But losing you, bro, that was a heavy hit
It changed my life, shifted the path of my tomorrow

Searching for meaning but the memories only borrow
Dissatisfied, I wonder how far you are away
Look where it all begins, Kindness was your strength
That’s what you used to display
I still remember your words, clear in the air
Your game was just to make a difference everywhere
But they didn’t want you, they pushed you far from me

Left me tortured, censored, in pain endlessly
For so many years I learned to live without thinking of you
It’s so cruel, regrettable, but what else could I do?
Still here uncomfortable, pouring out this plea
My only wish is to see you again – this verse is for thee

This is my cry, this is my pain
This is my song, my protest in the rain
Inside it lives all my discontent
And the deep wound of your disappearance
This is my cry, this is my pain
This is my song, my protest in the rain
Inside it lives all my discontent
And the deep wound of your disappearance

Feels like yesterday, that hard reality hit
My face forgot long ago what it means to smile a bit
The way it all went down was too surprising
I should’ve done something when you were fighting, surviving

I was just a boy, too young to comprehend
Twelve years old, you were close to seventeen then
Not that I deny death, I know it always exists
But why’s it gotta come for the innocent on the list?

Far from it all, I should be living in joy
But nothing’s better than having you here, my boy
I insist, I insist, I'm trapped in this cage, longing for your voice, burning in this rage
I believe one day we’ll meet, that’s what the Bible says, on a day like this, in unexpected ways

I don’t take prophecies literal, but I believe in return
I don’t know where you are, how you are, where you burn, that's why my soul will never turn
But wherever you’re resting, however it may be, this expression’s for you – be happy alongside the Lord

This is my cry, this is my pain
This is my song, my protest in the rain
Inside it lives all my discontent
And the deep wound of your disappearance

This is my cry, this is my pain
This is my song, my protest in the rain
Inside it lives all my discontent
And the deep wound of your disappearance

This is my cry, this is my pain
Declaration of a young soul living in strain
Fighting to rise above the hypochondria
Born from this sad nostalgia’s aria

I never wanted to believe you were gone
Every memory of you just makes my head strong
I dwell in torment, drowned in sorrow
Unconsoled knowing you won’t see tomorrow
I see you in the silence, in the candle flame
We honor your soul every day when we pray your name

The little ones ask: Who’s this in the picture frame?
They get sad knowing you live on another plane
In us you still live, that much is true
Your existence fades only when death comes too

Don’t believe I can resist this pain that I hold
I wish it was a mistake, a story untold
But it’s the law of life, supposedly, my brother
No excuse can erase this insane cover

So in this track, I want you to feel the tone
Let you feel the rhythm of this composition
The rhythm of my tears, Paulino Sebastião

This is my cry, this is my pain
This is my song, my protest in the rain
Inside it lives all my discontent
And the deep wound of your disappearance

This is my cry, this is my pain
This is my song, my protest in the rain
Inside it lives all my discontent
And the deep wound of your disappearance