DIOS

Today is one of those days of hopelessness
Where my body feels just as heavy, if not heavier than a ton
Today I feel weak
Today the bullets hit me
And my heaviest battle
Is just getting out of bed

Oh God
If you're there
Don't let me fall again
Give me the strength to keep pushing
Remind me that life isn't just bitter
And there are plenty of reasons to keep existing
If you see me trying to hurt myself again
And I sink into the darkest thoughts
Don't abandon me, oh, don't abandon me

No matter how much I say I always get back up
It's not that simple when you're lying on the ground
No matter how many years I've been fighting
I admit I'm still scared
I stay humble because I lose so often
I carry a thousand defeats like scars on my body
I met the devil in person and I stand by
That he's merciful compared to my ego

Oh God
If you're there
Don't let me fall again
Give me the strength to keep pushing
Remind me that life isn't just bitter
And there are plenty of reasons to keep existing
If you see me trying to hurt myself again
And I sink into the darkest thoughts
Don't abandon me

Oh, I was never good at praying
So I hope my song reaches heaven