Perdon

This is a story I wouldn't want to tell
It is impossible to forget and it hurts so much to remember
It's still stuck in my chest, I think one day it might explode
They want real perfect rap let's start
It was 2009 when I started rapping about alcohol
And the excesses didn't let me think
Every time I left the house my mom would start praying
I knew the day I was leaving, but not when I was going to return
And my routine was to go crazy partying
A lot of drugs, a lot of street dancing, even sleeping on the sidewalk
And so I lost 10 years of my life in the deepest part
When I wanted to react I was lying at the bottom
Poverty in a lifetime, my father's illness
Long dawns were my mother's tears
That sad night I danced tango with death
I didn't know that one day my luck would change among all these crazy things

That day, boss, I remember what you said
Son, don't be late, your father is very sad
He hasn't eaten, he's not hungry, he's just been there quietly
Don't go with your friends, better stay by their side
I have a commitment, boss. I had already agreed
I'll just go for a while and I'll be back soon
Bring your phone so you can dial in
Mom, I don't have it, I lost it at the restaurant
That tragic day I thought the night was mine
Having a great time was the only thing I knew
When the alcohol ran out we went for more
Night and day under the effects the days passed

That dark day I no longer knew what I was doing or about alcohol
That I didn't drink or the drugs I took while crazy
With my homies and with guys I didn't even know, I remember giving myself
A pass with a fucking policeman
I went out to get some air with a cigarette in my hand
Without knowing if he was on cocaine or marijuana
It's 12 o'clock at night, it's still a bit early
A pickup truck arrived at the barde and my two brothers got out
They're hardly partying, come on, this is just starting
Carnal is my little boss and the boss is looking for you

Bro, what's going on? Look at yourself. Are you doing well, perico?
But since my boss is here, get on over there and I'll explain to you
My vision blurred, a homie accompanied me what he told me
My mother spun around in my head, my friend patted me
He told me to calm down, bro. When I get there, you'll see him
At the hospital I want to see my father tell him something important
Something that I've never told you before because I'm crazy, if I could

Going back days to hug you, vice made me foolish
And that's what breaks me the most, let's start
With the saddest side of the song, life punished me
Without any compassion with closed eyes
Maybe I said a prayer for my father
For his recovery talking to God about things
That they come from the heart I know well that in my argument

This time I'm not right, the truck stopped, ending my illusion
Seeing that this was the entrance to the wake room, time
He stopped and there was only confusion, my mother crying
He said where were you, asshole? We've been looking for you for days
Without direction or direction, your father died the day before yesterday from the fucking cancer
He defeated him. This morning the mass is already here and his cremation will follow
Go see him before he's nice and quiet in his drawer, mother
I couldn't tell him, I couldn't explain to him, but what did you want to tell him?
I wanted to ask for your forgiveness