Sílabas y Salivas

Thinking about forgetting you just makes me remember you
So I did this for you

I've asked for you in prayers, eyelashes, and candles
We said goodbye in a sign language
Tell me again that you like me, tell me again what you dream about
I'm an expert at believing you if you say you fly, you fly

I know your next move
You'll turn on your phone while I fall asleep
That's why I live with my heart exposed
Waiting to see who will take my now exposed

Today I cried, do you hate me? Find me!
In my next life, let’s pretend there’s one after this
It won’t be our last lie
But as long as it’s a lie, it’ll still be ours

I lied again, 'cause I don’t feel good
You lied again while you were feeling me
Me like a fool watching you
Maybe the day I said I didn’t know you, I was just getting to know you

I’m dead while I’m alive
Who knows more about forgetting? The one who forgets or the one who’s forgotten?
And the one who forgets forgets they forgot
But the one who’s forgotten never forgets who forgot them

Your comments always so sharp
You’re so cold when you come in and so hot when you leave
I can’t stand your dismissals anymore
You’re so good when you lie and so bad that you know it

You used to ignore me, then it was a runway
You were my New York model: Carolina Herrera
And in bed, a dirty gangsta
You were so good, you were so sweet, you were, you were, you were

And now I’m left with memories
Of what we were one day
Of looking into each other’s eyes
With a lost gaze

And now I’m left with memories
Of what we were one day
Of looking into each other’s eyes
With a lost gaze

I separate our kisses by salivas and your name by syllables
No adjectives left, look at her!
How she walks, how I look at her
As if she hadn’t left me ellipses

Inexplicable, like magic
Like death, like life
Darling, I miss you at night
Because of this absurd habit I have of drinking during the day

I can still see you in me
Trusting in us, but doubting you
Look for answers in Genesis, I looked there too
And there were fake I Hate You’s and an I Miss You in parentheses

Here a day feels like months
I remember those fights full of nonsense
I yelled, take everything that belongs to you
My chest almost disappears

Don’t ask me to understand you
It must be that we speak the same language, even though you’re studying another one
I lost you, then I lost my stage fright
How do I explain to the world that now I call you past tense?

You pay me like this?
I who’ve taken care of you from the same world that’s neglected me
Be happy
You’re getting to know someone while I’m forgetting you

So empty inside that what I love is your silhouette
Some hands that touch me, but never hold me
Don’t tell me you love me, explain it
How can you feel so much and respond with monosyllables?

I’m two sighs away from forgetting you
I don’t want to do it
Don’t judge me, or call me stubborn
I just want to know how many “Forever” fit in someone else’s body

And now I’m left with memories
Of what we were one day
Of looking into each other’s eyes
With a lost gaze

And now I’m left with memories
Of what we were one day
Of looking into each other’s eyes
With a lost gaze