El Espacio de Tu Cama

You see, I told you something happened

It's 6 in the morning, and it's more of a leap of faith than desire
You’ve got tears saved up in case the low hits you
You crawl into bed, and that huge gap seems to speak to you
A reflection in the mirror that hurts you
Only those who love truly suffer

Your gaze is cold, but that heart of yours is on fire
We traded birthdays for a night in therapy
Maybe then the bed wasn’t made for two
Something’s just missing, I call it time
I’m dodging the pain that comes from not having it
You ask me how I am, you know I’m lying
I don’t even ask anymore because I feel like I offend you

I write what hurts, because we know a thing or two about love, I can give you examples
Who wants to touch the sky? I came from your rib, I’ve got your name on my body
Last night I fell asleep in your lap while you were watching me
I could give a concert locked in a temple
They don’t know what I’m talking about because love is silence
I’ve never raised my voice to you, listening to you is a privilege
I found love with your first 'I love you'
You love me when I least deserve it, when the world hates me, you see me as a giant

I carry myself like a thug because I’m scared of you
But I’m a badass in your arms, I’m your little one
Teach people how to be a woman, God Ashiva, mother, queen, all the time
To love in pieces and make me feel whole
To be broken inside, yet still be home, inspiration, and a temple
You’ve got a steady pulse, you calm me when I tremble
With a choked voice, you keep reading me stories
Messy hair, you’re still a monument

(There’s an artist I’m taking to an event right now)
(And then you let me know)

I want you to know that tonight I wrote again
I can see God when I see you smile
You work magic with the little that’s left of me
You don’t care who the hell I’ve become
Or what I have, my dreams, or all the trash I’ve been

You taught me how to bleed and laugh
Those tricks are only known by those who’ve learned to suffer
Not feeling is a new way of feeling
I know you cried again, fear doesn’t know how to lie
I don’t know what’s coming, but I’m staying here

Your sole turned the mosaic into a floor in Madrid
That’s how love feels
I’m all broken up, but in every piece, I carry you
I know your heart still hurts as much as mine
As much as mine

You make this badass feel small, acting tough outside
You break, but you don’t shatter
When the heart doesn’t respond, the strength of the legs remains
This is infinite, I’ll stay if you stay

You’ve been my religion, my homeland, my flag
Your word my doctrine, your caresses my school
Living without you would be a punishment for my veins
What would I do with this body full of guilt and pain?
From seeing you cry, I distanced myself from problems
I don’t want to be a gangster, I want to write you poems
I don’t get into trouble because I know you’re waiting for me

You’ll be my queen until the day I die
Until the day I die
Until the day I die

I wish I could give you back time
So the space of your bed doesn’t hurt like it always does

I wish I could give you back time
So the space of your bed doesn’t hurt like it always does