Me Borro Del Mapa

I erase myself from the map for a while
Without sending my location
I need to be alone and away from the crowd to calm what’s burning inside me
All this is driving me crazy
Peace is slipping away from me
My mind won’t let me be

I need distance from this cruel world
No matter what you do, you can’t please everyone
Some people seem to take flight when they see you on the ground
And without being friends
They turn out to be fake
Not good at all

There are hugs that squeeze you tight
Just to see where you break
It’s sad, but it’s true, I’m worth something as long as I’m useful to them
When they see me on the ground, they even feel happy
I’d rather lose people than lose myself by playing their game

I’m tired of breaking myself so others can feel whole
I stopped insisting on those who didn’t respect my time
I learned to give them the same, the same they gave me
And now without feelings
Life is better when no one knows what I’m up to
Or where I am, or who I’m with, or what I’m moving
I erase myself from the map for a while without sending my location
I need air and the open road to calm the confusion
No matter what you do, they always have bad intentions
I’m no longer looking for understanding
I don’t even explain my reasons, the lessons came from betrayals and disappointments
If they ask for my name, tell them I’m in other areas
Healing what hurt, closing wounds alone
It wasn’t running away, it was silence to find myself again
Sometimes stepping back is also moving forward
Not everyone who leaves is losing their way
Some people get lost by not facing their destiny

Don’t look for me when I rise because you weren’t there when I was down
You saw me shattered and it even pleased you
I don’t hold any hate
I just don’t give them access anymore
Some doors have closed
And it was God who put the weight on them

I lost the habit of begging
And I became addicted to being calm
Let them say what they want, I already know who it was
I erased myself from the map for a while to come back better than yesterday
I didn’t need their hug, I needed to understand
That some people stick around just to see you fall
Don’t come to me with stories that they’ve moved on
Wounds can be forgiven, but access is closed
Today the circle is smaller and I’m the first to enter
I no longer let my peace cost me what God gave me.