No Me Gusta

I stopped to think
While I washed my face
My reflection didn’t show
What happened yesterday

I let it out in a post
In private they were asking
I still don’t understand anything
It feels like my other self

I’m tired because I’m not being honest
I’ve always been so proper
I’m going to change direction
The truth hurts more
But it calms my anxiety
I’m going to scream, I’m going to scream

I don’t like good mornings
Nor the noise of the city
I’m not one for company
But loneliness is scary

I don’t like when they smile at me
Especially if there’s deceit
I hate having my wings clipped
I need my freedom

I think I’ve lost my way
Illuminated by a glass
Pretending as a sport
I can’t see anymore

Reality fades away now
Everything turns into vices without love
Having late-night conversations
And face to face not knowing how to talk

I’ve seen myself drowning at the bottom of the glass
And jumping into the void isn’t my plan
I don’t want to repeat my steps
I hope you do the same

I’m tired because I’m not being honest
I’ve always been so proper
I’m going to change direction
The truth hurts more
But it calms my anxiety
I’m going to scream, I’m going to scream

I don’t like good mornings
Nor the noise of the city
I’m not one for company
But loneliness is scary

I don’t like when they smile at me
Especially if there’s deceit
I hate having my wings clipped
I need my freedom