No Puedo Más

Sometimes I feel like I can't take it anymore
All the chaos brings fewer friends and hardly any peace
God save me from this damn smoking

It's obvious that those who never used won't understand it
No matter how many arguments I give to justify myself
I don't think I deserve to recover from this
It's frustrating because I have plenty of reasons to break free

The hard part is turning reason into motivation
My weakness is the high
No one forced me to get on this plane
Even though I'm the pilot, I think I've lost control
Why am I fooling myself? That's already a fact
Life has hit me hard with smoke in my chest

But I don't complain, I just vent if I feel the pain with
Bottles, I drown them out, despite everything I've done
I advocate for myself, I listen to the advice of crazies who were junkies
Let people bark, I wish time could suddenly rewind but
Not with these people

Sometimes I feel like I can't take it anymore
All the chaos brings fewer friends and hardly any peace
God save me from this damn smoking

How I wish it was like it was when we were kids and there was no chaos
Like when the whole family was together and because of addiction it all went to hell
Lost friendships, the so-called real ones made my family hate me
They looked at me badly everywhere I went, I got a bad vibe

I valued life so little while high, just looking for
A way to escape the pain, the detachment I always felt
A crazy person always recognizes another crazy from afar, my life burns like a fuse
So much I lost because of cravings, I made my home a red zone

And how much did I have to lose to understand that being in love with addiction would never let us grow
I lost my reason for being and no matter how much we want, nothing will bring it back
And to understand it was all my fault, joy left because of the malice

I lost everything I had because I'm not the same since that damn day

Sometimes I feel like I can't take it anymore
All the chaos brings fewer friends and hardly any peace
God save me from this damn smoking