Antidepressivos (Suicídio)

This is my suicide note
I know I will never be understood
No matter how much I whisper in their ears
I know I will never be understood
I've already tried to be open to the world
But the world thinks I'm a whim
Everything I try to do deep down
It's about trying to feel less like trash

Every night I talk to myself
I think I'm my own best friend
But I also found a match and changed
I think I'm my own worst enemy
The doctor says this is depression
The psychologist says it's anxiety
My family says I'm clueless
That I have responsibility issues

Many times I feel disposable, I think the world pities me
I often think you would be better off if I weren't here
I often feel trapped in a fierce battle with loneliness
Trying to get rid of these problems that I believe have no solution

There's a voice on your shoulder that says that
You have to stop
On the other shoulder there is another voice that says that
You have to continue
And you're left torn, not knowing what to do
Without knowing how many voices are obeying
The one that hurts you or the one that wishes you well

Again, you can try again (but never give up on yourself, listen)
Again, you can try again (because tomorrow will be better)
Again, you can try again (you should try again)
Again, you can try again (because tomorrow will be better)

My father is tired, he's given up on me
My mother doesn't give up, she prays for me every day
When you commit suicide
You don't die alone
You also kill those who care about you
Whenever I get depressed, my quota cries twice as much
He has already asked several churches for help in freeing Satan
What I have inside me, the night shows me the path to death

Some voices are talking to me
I have several cuts on my wrist
At night I lock myself in my room alone and no one can stand me
Besides my quota, I think he's lying
When you ask me why I'm strong
Death is coming to get me
Every day the door slams shut
My mother tells me not to open it

It doesn't matter to me anymore
I've done so many stupid things
Just to feed some vices
I left behind unhappy people who love me
I gave my family away as a sacrifice
Every superhero has a weakness
And I already feel like a huge failure
It's like everything in my life is going wrong
And guess who's to blame?

Again, you can try again (but never give up on yourself, listen)
Again, you can try again (because tomorrow will be better)
Again, you can try again (you should try again)
Again, you can try again (because tomorrow will be better)

Today I confess that I don't know exactly what you're going through
And I'm neither God nor a judge, so I'm not going to judge you
All I ask of you is just a minute of silence to listen to me
You are greater than all the difficulties you are facing
David was just a boy who overcame a huge problem
Only God creates our destiny, but your faith takes you further
Your soul will have to bleed for your victory to make more sense

Lift your head and repeat after me
I will no longer commit suicide
If you lost a battle today
Remember that there is a tomorrow to try
Know that God's plan never fails
But you need yourself to walk
Life is a gift from God

And a gift is not to be refused
A gift is appreciated
That's why my brother is taking advantage
If it didn't work out today but you tried, my brother, come back tomorrow
And what if tomorrow fails too?
Come back the day after tomorrow
And what if tomorrow fails too?
Never stop fighting
Come back again and take the chance you have to try

Again, you can try again (but never give up on yourself, listen)
Again, you can try again (because tomorrow will be better)
Again, you can try again (you should try again)
Again, you can try again (because tomorrow will be better)