CRISTAL

As long as you exist
As long as my gaze searches for you beyond the hills
As long as nothing fills my heart if it’s not your image
And there’s a remote chance that you’re alive somewhere
Illuminated by some kind of light

As long as I sense that you are and you go by that little name of yours
I’ll keep on like this, my love, aching from the distance
Under this love that grows and never dies
Under this love that continues and never ends

You came into my life when I thought I was empty
You brought color to a world that’s always been gloomy
Today I was thinking about you all damn morning
Asking myself if it’s true that you love me

I write to you and there’s no reply, maybe that’s for the best
I trust that one day time will take away the pain
For my part, there’s no resentment, my love, you know I care
I wish I could kiss your lips, without them I’m in despair

Today I cling to your absence and your desire to forget me
I know your pride comes first, so you won’t call me
After all, my broken soul doesn’t offer you much

I remember in that park smiling while I listen to you
Your caresses are still imprinted on my skin
Shipwrecked in the ocean of your absence, woman

I know well what it is to lose because of those pretty eyes
And pretend that nothing’s happening while I’m vomiting inside
There are poems I still haven’t written dedicated to your body
Gazes that don’t meet in this vast universe, my feelings in every verse

I’m lost in your hips, you left and didn’t take me
I’m yours even if you didn’t want me
I have to close the wound, bleed what’s necessary
Expel this sadness that weighs me down and follows me daily

Another ordinary jerk with dreams in his pockets
Today I want to spend the afternoon with music and cigarettes
I know I’m not the same guy you met long ago
Something has dimmed in me, it shows on my sad face

I don’t know how much you loved me or if you still do
What we had was fleeting like the passing of days
Tell me that you’re still mine and that only I can touch you
No one has managed to take you from my heart of ice

I’m already a new chapter or at least that’s how I feel
Today I recite this piece to you with my heart wide open