Me Perdoa?

I know, it took me so long to realize
How much were you yelling without saying anything?
I heard you late, and when I looked to the side
Your place was already abandoned

The echo of your voice lingered in the house
It hits the wall, bounces back, and doesn't go past
And I'm trapped in the silence I created
Trying to fix what I broke

If I could erase the pain
To reclaim the time we lost
Maybe you'd still be here today
And that emptiness didn't reside within me

Pardon me?
I swear I tried, but I got lost along the way
Pardon me
Because it was the weight that blocked your path

I know, you were right
I never learned to listen to my heart
If one day the memory doesn't hurt us
Pardon me
Even if it's just to hear your voice

I saw the screen light up, it was a notification
My chest pounded, but it was just an illusion
It wasn't you, it was the world spinning
And I'm still in the same place, fooling myself

Time is cruel when we make mistakes
He closes the door and we surrender
And I'm left here, picking up the pieces
From the day I let go of your arms

If I could go back to the day you cried
I wouldn't have gone, I would have healed the pain
But now the longing screams loudly
Collecting the bill for my negligence

Pardon me?
I swear I tried, but I got lost along the way
Pardon me
Because it was the weight that blocked your path

I know, you were right
And today I feel every absence in my heart
If one day the memory doesn't hurt us
Pardon me
Even if it's just to hear your voice

It's too late to talk about us, I know
But the silence screams everything I've kept silent about
The whole world tells me to forget you
But my story only exists with you

Pardon me
For everything I didn't know how to be
Pardon me
For letting you go and watching you disappear

If life ever brings us face to face
I swear I'm going to be a different person

Pardon me
Even if it's just so I can keep living