Casual

If I only told someone
What happened in June
I bet they would call me stupid
But I was confused, thinking it would continue

A distant friend of mine
There was no proximity
For me, that would be impossible
But one morning it reached another level

You said: We are not together
But when

We kissed for the first time, you wanted more
Was it casual?
In less than a week you were already at the club
But it wasn't casual
For you, it was something normal
Was casual, now it's casual
I just want to find something similar
Let it not be casual, now it is casual

I spent the whole weekend
Dreaming of what comes next
Maybe we would stay together
But in public, it was someone else

You said: No, I don't feel anything
But when

We kissed for the first time, you wanted more
Was it casual?
In less than a week you were already at the club
But it wasn't casual
For you, it was something normal
Was casual, now it's casual
I just want to find something similar
Let it not be casial

But was it casual?
When did you first become interested?
But was it casual?
When you defended me, you didn't want to see me suffer, did you?
Does it ever cross your mind?
When did I become truly sad?
No matter how much I forget you
This always persists

We kissed for the first time, you wanted more
In less than a week you were already at the club
For you, it was something normal
I just want to find something similar

It made me fucking sad, on just another Sunday
It seems like you hate me now, but I'll never know why
The worst part is that it was for the best thing I ever dreamed of giving up
It's just that you probably don't remember me these days
I think about you every day, this can't be the end
Do you think I'm sad?
Oh, go to hell