Confesión (part. Luar La L)

My God, I’m gonna share my feelings
I’m lost, I don’t have a clue
And I confess that I’m feeling let down
That’s why I’m making you this song

I feel like you’re no longer the one flying this plane
Still, I listen and pay attention to you
You know that deep inside I’ve always longed for salvation
But it’s not that easy, and that’s the issue

I’ve already fought the battle
And I always end up distancing myself from our relationship
And if you turned around, I’m here again
Asking you once more to make that change in me

I have faith, I’ve always trusted in you
Cover me with your cloak, I want to rest in you
There was something that stood in the way
My dreams, which nowadays are my resource

But I always wonder what will happen if I lose my pulse
Am I going to Heaven or Hell?
Will I gain eternal life or will I get the eternal fire?
It crosses my mind, many times frequently

That with the music I sing, I infect people
Even my own family thinks I’m a criminal
And I have to play tough
As if I don’t care

I walk around with a fake smile plastered on my face
Having almost everything, I feel nothing
And that’s proof that without you I have nothing, and it pisses me off
I live waiting for your call, and you don’t show up

Today I feel you, and tomorrow you disappear
I understand that what I have with you is only sometimes
But my desire for you to always be here grows
My spirit lacks your love, that’s how it seems

Don’t let go
I have a jumbled mind
I wait for you with the door open
My conscience knows I might lose

If I fall in love with money, fame, and jewels

Don’t be afraid, son
My arms are always open, oh-oh, hey-hey
I’m not looking for perfection
Just a willing heart, ah, ah

Don’t be afraid, son
My arms are always open, hey, oh
I’m not looking for perfection
Just a willing heart

God, I’m ready, I’m willing
Maybe not now, but if I take my time, if I take my place
How do I put on the gloves when I’m living the dream?
Your idea is for me to let go of everything I’ve worked for

And I feel like this is already unfair, and still, I seek you
And if you end this tomorrow and don’t take me, I won’t judge you
Because I haven’t been the best, so much so that it scares me
I’ve tried to do good, and I don’t fit in

I feel like you’ll leave me
Now I understand that there are many things money can’t buy
Like peace, salvation
My God, tell me what to do

Since you’re always watching everything with observation
You want me to be your warrior, give me a confirmation
Guide me with your sign, save me from perdition
Break every curse, you have the vision

And in the meantime, I’ll keep talking to you through prayer, amen

Son, just follow my voice
My son, listen to me, pay attention
I’m not looking for your appearance, I’m looking for your heart
I knock on the door, but opening it is your decision

I just want to have a relationship with you
But every time I call you, you run away
In your plans, you no longer include me
I see how this world destroys you

I am the light that never dims when it shines
And when you fail, my spirit convicts you
I’m the one who’s with you in all your tears
I’m the one who restores all your brokenness

The enemy has tried, but I always scare him off
I love you, son, I love you, but you don’t know how much
I love you so much that I gave my life for you
So much so, I didn’t care about the wounds

And even though it hurts because you always forget
I’ll be here waiting for you to decide.