Pastillas y Besos

Time doesn't heal me
I fall asleep

Pills to make your head sleep
Kisses so I don't feel my chest
I promise myself this is the last one
And I always come back to the same thing

I'm not sad, I'm tired
To think, to remember
I swallow my fear with water
And I let the guilt go

It's not love I'm looking for
It is inner silence
Something to turn off the noise
Even if it's worse

Pills and kisses
Everything is anesthesia
I feel nothing
And that gives me peace

Pills and kisses
Dangerous mixture
If he doesn't kill me
It makes me incapable

I don't feel
I don't feel

Hot bodies, cold souls
Lights off, mind on
They tell me: This is going to end
But nobody says when it ends

Promises made in the early morning
That are forgotten at dawn
Like me, who promised to take care of myself
And I got lost again

Don't judge me if I fall
I didn't ask to be here
Sometimes survival
It's the closest thing to living

Pills and kisses
Everything is anesthesia
I feel nothing
And that gives me peace

Pills and kisses
Dangerous mixture
If he doesn't kill me
It makes me incapable

Maybe tomorrow
I want to stop
But today I just want
Stop thinking

It's not a vice
It's customary
It's not a pleasure
It is necessary

Pills and kisses
They won't save me
They only delay
What's going to happen

Pills and kisses
They close wounds
That they bleed again

Time doesn't heal me
I fall asleep