Mala Para Todo

Father, I really can't take it anymore
I break down at home, I get angry again
And sometimes I think that my mom
She never learned what it was to love
I'm tired of this total grayness
I feel my life fading more and more
And nobody knows what weighs on me
This storm that won't let me sleep

And even though I try to breathe
The silence strikes again
It hurts to see me stumble
And not knowing how to change

And I keep telling myself that I'm bad at everything
Bad daughter, bad sister, I always break everything
Bad student, bad omen walking alone
Bad Christian, bad at everything I touch
Even though I pretend not to cry, inside I'm drowning
I'm bad at everything, bad at everything

Twenty-three marks on my arm today
Broken promises I made to myself
I write firmly, but it's fiction
My breath trembles inside
At school, nobody understands who I am
That insult Ednar said to me hurt me
She called me ugly: I stood my ground
But inside I broke down again

And even though I try to breathe
The silence strikes again
It hurts to see me stumble
And not knowing how to change

And I keep telling myself that I'm bad at everything
Bad daughter, bad sister, I always break everything
Bad student, bad omen walking alone
Bad Christian, bad at everything I touch
Even though I pretend not to cry, inside I'm drowning
I'm bad at everything, bad at everything

But if I could see myself with different eyes
If I understood that I am not what others said I am
I'm not a bad person, I just carry more than I can handle
Just a little girl screaming at the sky

And I don't want to keep repeating that I fail at everything
I am stronger than my ruins, even if I fall to the bottom
I am human, and even though I'm scared, I'm still standing here
I'm not a bad person, I'm just trying not to disappear
Even though I sometimes feel like I'm drowning, I keep breathing
I'm not bad at everything