Mal Hábito

I said I wasn't going to look for you
And here I am again
With the perfect excuse
That it didn't happen yesterday

Your hands know the way
Where you make me fall
And me pretending I'm in control
What I don't know how to break

I always promise to leave
I always come back afterwards
There are decisions I make
Although I know they're not okay

You're a bad habit
That I don't want to leave
Something that hurts me
But I like it just the same

You're a bad habit
Hard to forget
I know you're breaking me
And yet I go back in

Don't talk to me about the future
If you don't plan to stay
Don't tell me it's affection
If it's just a necessity

I bear the blame
Not knowing when to stop
From returning to your body
Like home

I always swear it's the last one
I always lie again
There are pleasures that are felt
Even if they taste like losing

You're a bad habit
That I don't want to leave
Something that hurts me
But I like it just the same

You're a bad habit
Difficult to erase
I break down in your silences
And I begin again

It's not love
It's customary
It's not a wish
It's not knowing how to be alone

You're a bad habit
And I'm not going to deny it
There are things that kill me
And I don't want to change