Jenn, Pt. 2

You didn't leave, you stayed despite everything
But I wasn't the same anymore, I admit it
After the blow, my love faded
And you were shining, but I was clouded inside

I hugged you out of habit, not out of faith
I looked at you and didn't feel what I felt yesterday
I changed without wanting to admit it
And I began to let you go

It's my fault, if I stopped loving you in silence
I didn't feel your tears on my chest
I got lost looking for myself somewhere else
Leaving behind what you still wanted to give

It's my fault, for clinging on without wanting to stay
For lying to me just so as not to hurt you
And even though you failed once
I failed the rest of the time after that

I found comfort in the wrong place
I no longer felt joy by your side
I preferred conversations with my friend
To face the cold that lived among us

I wanted to save what no longer existed
I took care of you, but I didn't love you, my love
And even though I didn't shout goodbye to you
I told you with my fierce indifference

It's my fault, for not intending to
For surrendering without giving an explanation
I slowly died in your love
Until it didn't hurt anymore, not even your pain

It was my fault, yes, it was my fault