Peculiar

I've seen your face for the last time
I wish the time we spent could last forever
You should follow the river like a fish does
Neither of us knows what we're looking for
I've arrived at a rather peculiar forest

And I don't know where to look
At the leaves or that tree
Or to take in the whole place
Don't follow my path, don't follow the valley
We're from different mothers and different streets

Each of us has grown at our own pace
Your gaze is drifting to limbo
I get lost in the details
I've grown through the punches

Wandering down a path I don't know if I chose
I don't know if luck has smiled on me
Even if it's tough, I haven't given up
The diet of the moment: Not sleeping as my food

The blame is mine, I failed in all my attempts
For wanting to find outside what I lack inside
Just give me a bit of your light
And serve it on a platter

So I can calm my head
And accept the course of my complaints
What will be my strength?
I have no certainty

Why fight?, why keep going?
Why, if I can't take it anymore?
Why pretend?
Why burn this peculiar tree?

I stay firm on my path
Trusting that one day the Sun will rise
In the meantime, I keep wandering
'Cause all I can do is walk

The toughest battles I'll face
Will always be against myself
I've never been able to defeat me
I've only fought to survive

I prepared a thousand apologies just in case one day
The grave feels like visiting
But I change my route
So all that's left is to keep going

So thank you for giving me a bit of magic
In this gray life, addicted to nostalgia
Life isn't fair and it never will be
But it's better not to change for those who don't want to see

I want to keep being a great good
I must be true to my essence
I could blame, I could point fingers
I could hate, hide the truth
But that would make me just like everyone else

The routine of my days turned a gray tone
I know what to do to fix it
But I don't put in the effort
In the meantime, I'll take some time to smile
And I'll wait seated for what's to come

Why fight?, why keep going?
Why, if I can't take it anymore?
Why pretend?
Why burn this peculiar tree?

I stay firm on my path
Trusting that one day the Sun will rise
While I keep wandering
'Cause all I can do is walk