Efímera

They tell me not to fall asleep
I force myself to write a new song
Something upbeat with a good rhythm
Catchy lyrics 'cause everything's ephemeral

They tell me yes, what a prize
That I sing with everyone, what great years
That I look so bright
Always smiling with a shine in my hair

And I who have broken down
The walls of my skeleton
With blank pages in hand
An empty jar, that I don’t understand

And I who still haven’t written
All the letters that say goodbye
That I don’t fit in this planet
And I’ve moved to disappointment street

And how do I explain to you that there are days
That even with everything, I’m not happy
I buy myself a white smile
I dress in red, I pretend it’s all good

The lights end up blinding
And inside, pain keeps walking
And sadness rocks me
No matter how hard I try, everything feels too big
And I won’t let myself fall
And I won’t let myself fall

One day a teacher told me
I’ve become what I always hated
Never lose your lighthouse
Don’t let yourself get wrapped in paper dreams

I trust that with time
I’ll be clearer on where I want to be
And know who to get close to
And who truly cares for me

And I who sometimes wish to be
Who I don’t want to be
And I feel like it’s all a lie
That the world moves for pure interest

And I who still haven’t written
All the letters that say I love you
I no longer fit in this planet
And every little while, I die of fear

And how do I explain to you that there are days
That even with everything, I’m not happy
I buy myself a white smile
I dress in red, I pretend it’s all good

The lights end up blinding
And inside, pain keeps walking
And sadness rocks me
No matter how hard I try, everything feels too big
And I won’t let myself fall
And I won’t let myself fall

And you have to fall to understand
And you have to fall to come back
And I won’t let myself fall