Inveja

I imagine myself
Running through other fields
Living in other bodies
Running away from excess, from selfishness and the absurd

I imagine the stage light
Silence as tribute
The suffocation, the squeeze
The search for a space

The speech that is right
The charismatic smile
Hair always in the wind
Female, hydrated

The high-pitched and boring voice
Boredom in disguise
The glory of the drink
Of the suicide and the cigarette

I prefer to be alone
I'd rather go blind
For my favorite shine
Which is the shine of my pearls

I'd rather bleed gold
I'd rather cry silver
I change what's human
I don't care about having a soul

Because I deserve
I deserve
I deserve so much

Because I strive
I strive
I try so hard

So God light my way
What do I do, what do I kill
Whatever it takes
And everything will be mine

And everything will be mine

It bruises me so much
And it hurts me so much

Knowing that her talent outweighs my effort
I won't be the prettiest
Much less the thinnest
I can't be interesting or likeable

I searched for respect
For fear and money
But does it matter
If she gets what I want?

If they listen when she talks
If they look at when she passes
If she doesn't even care
If she can feel loved?

Ah, ah-ah, a-ah

But I deserve
I deserve
I deserve
I deserve

I deserve
I deserve
I deserve
I deserve more

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