El tipo que vive dentro

Today I found myself alone
With the guy who lives inside
Who always goes against the grain
When I try to stay on track

He throws old reasons at me
Pushes me down my shortcuts
Wants me to fall again
Where I’ve been trapped before

I tell him I’m fed up
That I won’t give him the time
I push back against his force
Sometimes strong, sometimes weak
I don’t know if I want to beat him
Or just find some peace

He challenges me, puts me to the test
Turns all my doubts around
I walk without a clear path
Stopping every couple of steps
Talking to my thoughts
As if they were failures

Some days I move light
Other days I feel weighed down
But I keep moving forward
Even if I’m all messed up

I promise myself a thousand fresh starts
Every time I fall apart
And in the end, I keep fighting
With the same shit I’ve created

I just want to be at ease
When the evening falls
Let it come with all its baggage
I’ll bring my own choices