Je Suis Malade

I don't dream anymore
I don't smoke anymore
I don't even have a story
I'm dirty without you
I'm ugly without you

Like an orphan in a dorm

I don't want to live my life anymore
My life stops when you leave
I have no life and even my bed
Turns into a train station
When you go away

I'm sick
Completely sick
Like when my mom would go out at night
And leave me alone with my despair

I'm sick
Perfectly sick
You show up, we never know when
You leave, we never know where
And it's been almost two years
That you don't give a damn

Like a rock
Like a sin
I'm hooked on you
I'm tired
I'm exhausted
Pretending to be happy
When they're around
I drink every night
But all the whiskeys
Taste the same to me
And all the boats fly your flag
I don't know where to go, you're everywhere

I'm sick
Completely sick
I bleed my heart into your body
And I'm like a dead bird
When you sleep

I'm sick
Perfectly sick
You've taken away all my songs
You've drained me of all my words
Yet I had talent before your skin

This love is killing me
If it keeps up
I'll die alone with myself
Next to my radio
Like a dumb kid
Listening to my own voice singing

I'm sick
Completely sick
Like when my mom would go out at night
And leave me alone with my despair
I'm sick
That's right, I'm sick
You've taken away all my songs
You've drained me of all my words
And my heart is completely sick
Surrounded by barricades
You hear me, I'm sick