Der Verlust

I waste away day by day and night by night
Every morning a part of me is missing, every morning a part of me is missing
I can hardly bear to look in the mirror, I waste away
I don't want to come up empty-handed anymore, and since you no longer watch, I take what I can get
And I take what I can still grasp
Only me, only me I can't grasp anymore.

And I spin out
I waste away, slip away from myself
A little more every day,
Every time a part of me.

I struggle for that little bit of life,
Please just for your gaze as long as you don't see me, you waste my life
You can't see
How I fall apart involuntarily
As long as you don't see me
I can't feel, I can't live.

Between my own lines I wanted to move.
Bending beneath them, I must now find my place
I don't want to sleep anymore, don't want to dream or wake up
Everything just becomes strange and stranger, I don't recognize myself anymore
I don't know why and for what or where
And so I fly away, aimlessly and without sight

I struggle for that little bit of life,
Please just for your gaze
As long as you don't defeat me
You waste my life
You can't see how I fall apart
Useless, sick, and unwanted
As long as you don't behold me, can't feel yourself, can't live.

I struggle for that little bit of life,
Please just for your gaze
As long as you don't defeat me
You waste my life
You can't see how I fall apart
Useless, sick, and unwanted
As long as you don't behold me, can't feel yourself, can't live.