basureta

Visceral boredom, hypochondria, cosmic angst
The farthest point from the sun in my orbit
The pure weariness of living is my bitter tonic
Fears I mask with appearances
Self-hatred and the belief system

Like a masochist in the hands of a sadist
It's the relationship of my soul with my conscience
I'm reserved, I protect myself from speaking
'Cause words commit, they promise

A man without his word
Is just like a goat
A bear or a snake

I don't believe in anything, I avoid disappointments
I steer clear of everything that could hurt me
Then I learned that glory isn't for the cautious
Once I took a risk and ended up distrusting people

Always keeping my distance
Stale relationships without substance
Not distancing from the vampire
Is just a consented nonsense

If only I had the chance, it would have left
But it stayed by my side, I won't forget
I was delirious, depressed all day
And still, she looked at me with all the love she could

Fantasizing in a loop
Feeling sorry for feeling sorry
Without strength or will, with strong reluctance
Planning a flat existence

White on white, black on black
And so on
Being one with the void and lying down
Falling, decaying, and deeply relapsing

Rehashing the obsolete, staying still
Giving up the services of the skeleton
Creating a ghetto on the couch
Saying goodbye to the sun and the wind, dying awake

Rebellion against my own rebellion
Today I won't open my eyes all day
Living in a tunnel, sleeping in a tunnel
Just to become another stone in the tunnel

Confirming my own neglect
Saying: Goodbye, howdy, did we ever meet?
Moving just to roll joints and change tracks
Sedating myself, dying of thirst

Diving into the lie, swimming in nothing
Succumbing to tears, neither acidic nor salty
Neither sweet nor bitter, yes neutral, sinister
I've turned into a statue

I've developed the perfect cry
But there's no awards for this, nor affection
Bangs that doors take away
Invisible signals if you're not alert, attentive

Disconnected, I needed months
To discover I was wrong
There are butterflies that look like monsters
And faces that get etched in memory

Like someone deceived me, I stopped being compassionate
And every day I became more cruel
The innocent paid for the guilty, Nero spoke to me
Hearing him was my worst mistake

Exploding at the most inconvenient moment
I throw the day in the trash at minute one
I haven't even given a kiss or thanks for the juice
I've ruined breakfast again

With my wishes to die upon waking
With a guy like this, who the hell wants to be?
Another shitty gesture, another bad response
Another accusing look of shit and I made her cry

That's why I want to blow up
When he goes to work, I'm gonna bail!
That's not me!, that's not me!
I heard my voice: Only God can save you

And I went to a priest to get exorcised
He said: You're noble, it's just a weird phase
Take care of yourself and take better care of your beloved
God is with you, my son, fear nothing

In the end, the solution was in me
I still haven't found it, but I'm getting there
The world became too big for me, I couldn't handle the pressure
I wish I hadn't written this song

I dream of my mom buttoning my coat
Photos of my life in the ditches
No one can bring back my friend Carlos
Nor can take away those afternoons

The clock doesn't run backward
We're not even allowed a pause
Tick-tock, tick-tock, inaudible that torments
Time is a macabre joke

I'm heading towards death, terrified
Having wasted life being angry
Now I feel sad to leave
Knowing that the time I spent hating myself is useless

The bells ring announcing my hour
Corpse unburied: It seems to cry!
Recent tears on my lifeless skin
The scream of my eyes for not being able to see you again

I will love you even in the afterlife
There I'll wait for you with my white robe
If you don't forgive me, I won't rest in peace
I was always in love with your soul

I'm the one in charge of your happiness
I put all my goodness on the scale but it doesn't weigh enough
You never lost faith in me, nor hope
That they were just weird times

They're weird times where we were or were happy
They're weird times where we were or were happy
They're weird times where we were or were happy
They're weird times where we were or were happy

They're weird times where we were or were happy
They're weird times where we were or were happy
They're weird times where we were or were happy
They're weird times where we were or were

Weird times, weird times
Weird times are coming, weird times
Weird times are coming