Quase 20 Anos
Guih Santos
Nearly 20 Years Old
And each swipe left, another lonely night
Searching for a spark, but the soul feels so bare
19 years old and lost, in this digital sphere
Day after day, I just can't keep up my dear
A solitary evening, just me and the screen
Screen
Waiting for a match, my life unseen
Existential crisis, no cash, no gleam
Anxiety consumes me, an empty dream
My heart feels heavy, where do I go?
Lost in this life, I'm all alone, you know
Anxiety's a tempest, I don't know where to steer
Nearly 20 years old, and I'm still not found here
I try to escape this digital maze so clear
To find myself in loneliness, my dear
Each unanswered message, I feel so confined
In this virtual life, so defenseless I find
Quarter-life crisis, I can barely breathe my mind
Anxiety high, I just want to leave behind
Earning little, living at a slow pace
Dreams postponed, will I reach them, I embrace?
Pressure in my chest, trying to escape this space
Anxiety in my blood, I can't ignore its trace
Heart racing, hands sweating, I can't take a breath
Thoughts spiraling, I drown in this mental sea of death
Mental
I long for connection, but feel disconnection's wrath
Each notification, another rejection on my path
Scrolling through faces, but no companion I see
Each failure, another emotional scar for me
19 years old and running, trying to find my decree
But all I see is the same solitary face, wild and free
Tinder, Grindr, it's all a blur, a hazy sight
In this quest for love, it's just confusion, day and night
Endless nights, bright lights, can't switch off my mind's plight
Anxiety's a monster, I can't leave it out of sight
A fast-paced world, but I'm stuck in slow motion
Trapped in this storm, a ceaseless commotion
Trying to breathe, trying to find an open ocean
But all I feel is the weight of this doubt, a devotion
My heart feels heavy, where do I go?
Lost in this life, I'm all alone, you know
Anxiety's a tempest, I don't know where to steer
Nearly 20 years old, and I'm still not found here
I try to escape this digital maze so clear
To find myself in loneliness, my dear
