Derangement

I'm sick of this self-awareness
Overflowing with lies
Can you see it? These feelings
Coldly crashing in silence

To you who gave everything to me
Will you trust me one more time?
This disease of mine
Before it destroys you
I want to reclaim those empty days

(Goofy state)
Self-hate
I fall into an endless loop
Silent, escapism, lies
Unchangeable rotten roots

To you who gave everything to me
Will you trust me one more time?
This disease of mine
Before it destroys you
I want to reclaim those empty days

Lost days never undone
They tear me apart
So you won't slip away
Lost days never undone
They tear me apart
Vanish before I destroy you
This (derangement)

To you who gave everything to me
Will you trust me one more time?
This disease of mine
Before it destroys you
I want to reclaim those empty days

(Goofy state)
Self-hate
I fall into an endless loop
Silent, escapism, lies
Unchangeable rotten roots

At the bottom of my decaying mind
The fact that you gave
The day of change

Never forget it
The next loop means death

Lost days never undone
They tear me apart
So you won't slip away
Lost days never undone
They tear me apart
Vanish before I destroy you
This [derangement]

Beyond the pain
I'll take you there
I won't let go
Even if I turn to ash