Todo Destine

It's 4:48, if I don't get your call today, I'm gonna lose it
If I don't go looking for you, you promise another heartbreak
And if they catch you, I’ll grab a half-assed twenty-two

Kicked the pavement, hooded up, smoking a cigarette, it’s a mess
It's 5 in the morning, and even if there's trouble, I’m all in for you if you’re still looking fine

I warned you, I let you know
That I was losing it because I was going through it
Mom told me a couple years back: Son, it’s over
Stop getting into trouble, and I barely made it out again

Drugs didn’t break me, not even a door slam at home
Nor some fool promising a bullet
But that heartbreak hit like a slap
It got into my head like a sharp pain

I’d never felt butterflies in my stomach
But it left faster than cash in a deal
I waited at the door watching time go by
Like when I was a kid and Dad left home

I gave you my heart on a silver platter
I ended up wrecked, you faded without a fuss
I treated you like a queen, gave you my all
While at night you were jumping from bed to bed

Mom looks at me and says: Son, you’re looking thin
From the anxiety, I can’t even touch my plate
I go out to the street just looking for a smoke
And what was supposed to be dinner, I drowned in booze

I get home feeling down and sad
Crying to my mom that you didn’t come back again
She looks at me and says: Son, don’t get attached
In the short or long run, everything fades away
I look at her and say: I wanted her with me
It’s like money, it’s like money, the more I want, the less I get
I gave up everything for her, my family and friends
And now that she’s gone, I don’t know why I chase her

Feeling down, drunk, don’t know why it faded
I promised not to talk to her again, but I keep going back to the same
The moon is rising, and I feel empty
That we fit in my bed, it’s cold in the corner

The guys ask me if I’m doing alright
I tell them: I’m broken, just dealing with this pain
The girl I loved left with the siren
She put on the badge, the club, and the chain

Without chasing her for anything, not with false claims
She shouted to the street: The badge on the roof but never in the heart
The badge on the roof but never in the heart (cut)

Cupid hung me up and threw me onto the field barefoot
I thought I was a good kid, and that wolf hit me hard
Every time I grab the mic, it reminds me that you’re slipping from my arms

When I met you, I said: Crazy girl, you got all the cash
When I saw you naked, I said: You’re looking fine
Then I bought with you and thought you were different
But you weren’t different

I remember when you were so in love
I didn’t buy much, you wanted chocolates and letters
And I wanted to make it work, you told me: I love you, but you don’t have the gas

And you, crazy girl, who knew the bad side of my life
Left me stranded on such a cold night
The I love yous and the I care about yous were all lies
And what hurts the most is that I really cared about you

(This is for the false love that didn’t love me, and for the friend that betrayed me, everything fades away)