GRACIAS

Sometimes it's hard for me, but not that hard
I did it, but it cost me a fortune, and you have no idea how much
I often think about my head, which terrifies me
To find a reason for this madness that I sometimes sing to you

My adolescence was a time of escape
My present hates me, I live alone getting high
Feeling euphoria, getting drunk
Feeling peace, lying to myself
I stopped thinking, just fell asleep

And the truth is, it's not as simple as it seems
I disappear a couple of times
The knots in my throat tremble inside
I can't cry no matter how hard I try
I need to vent so I can calm down

I can't stand myself
I repeat the script, I'm not comforted
The light doesn't come out, focus on my disorder
I am sick, to cure myself I need another
Another past, another present, in this one I am broken

I'm not crazy in my fantasies
I never knew what the taste of little was like
Back to reality, I crash again
See you later, it's time

And I didn't give myself the chance to tell you
I loved the coincidence of crossing paths with your love and your transparency
In your promises I rekindled that innocence
That I lost during my adolescence
That I came back to find something with less deficiency

You were a reason for me to get up
To heal myself and not be late
If the train has passed, tell me which station I should go to to find you
I would travel the world just to meet you again

And if I cross paths with you and steal a kiss
In one of those complete verses
I scared away the company and you remained silent
You took my hand and I let go of that weight

I walked from my neighborhood, I approached your home
To see you up close, give you a kiss and soothe my troubles
I listened to you, I came to my senses and changed my manners
And I realized that maybe this is worth it

You gave me the most precious gift
A moment of peace, how do I close the deal?
In an embrace, two bright eyes
I forgot about the sadness, I said something funny
For a moment I was grateful for that beautiful day

You took the noose off my neck
I am grateful to you for showing me a more beautiful world
I forgot this, that, and the other thing
I watched the storm pass, I enjoyed the flash

I stroked your hair
I looked at you and said: Maybe next time, I'm not dying today
I begged God for mercy for almost doing it
I used up the courage I had to try again

I sat down and emptied the trunk of my memories
I separated the first kiss
I put it in a safe in case I die one day
Bury me, I'm going away with an eternal moment
Simply something of ours

I would like to rest my subconscious on your chest
To reaffirm my idea that I had discarded
You healed the wounds, I forgot the heartbreak
In that kiss there in my bed

You managed to soothe the ills, the emptiness is filled
I was struck by your details, they filled me with longing
With your love, my childhood reappeared

More than saying I love you or I like you, I prefer to say thank you
More than saying I love you or I like you, I prefer to say thank you
More than saying I love you or I like you, I prefer to say thank you