Mi Ángel de La Guarda

Grandpa, how's it going? How are you?
I hope things are good up there
Down here things are getting better
Mom's feeling more at ease now

It's been a while since we talked and I needed to share a bit about me
Though I’m sure you already know everything and you’re guiding me a lot from up there
Things have changed since the last time
I feel like I’m growing up

New emotions are knocking at my door
And they'll be welcome, but with love
I’ve met an amazing girl
No need to tell you her name

With her by my side, I feel invincible
And with you in my heart, I feel more like a man
I don’t want to see myself
I don’t want to talk to myself

I wish I could call you
Today I dedicate my art to you
Feeling how inside me you still beat
I want to go back to those afternoons eating cake

With a bit of chocolate
Wherever you are, I want you to be proud that your grandson sings to you
I want to feel loved, but at the same time, I don’t want to get hurt
I’ve realized that love and pain sometimes go hand in hand

And even though I’m a hopeless romantic
I’m scared to give my heart knowing I might relive moments from my past
I want to jump into the void if it lets me learn
I want to grow alongside my loved ones

Taking care of them and myself too
Because I’ve mistreated myself before
To feel used
My lungs paid for the pain that others caused in my life

And that hurts, hurts
Like it hurts me
Not being able to explain certain things because you know that even if they listen, they won’t understand
And it hurts, hurts

Thinking that those
I loved so much left one day without looking back even knowing they did it for good and forever
And it hurts, hurts
Like it hurts me

Thinking that I didn’t know how to tell you in life all that I loved you and now I can’t have you
And that hurts, hurts
It hurts to think you left too soon
And that my kids won’t have the chance to love you

Sometimes I wonder if I’m what I always wanted to be when I was little
I had a vision and I know it’s complicated, but I keep the faith
For you, for us
For the people I love from September to August

For everyone who lent me a hand when there were so many monsters on my balcony
Little by little it feels better
I know you give me peace and love
At night when fear creeps in

And a light shines from my balcony
It’s you giving me your energy
Reminding me that tomorrow will be another day
That no one can stop me from going where my heart tells me to

I want to cherish the details that make love a more beautiful love
Since I saw her gaze, I’ve found my favorite place without a doubt
There’s no myth
That expresses what I’ve seen in that woman

She makes me feel like myself again
And right now, that’s what I need the most
I want to fly
I want to learn to lose and to win

I want to get off the street and spend more hours at home
Taking care of Mom
Also Dad
My sister, my grandma, my yaya, and everyone who wants to see me fight to shine one day

Grandpa
Music is what keeps me afloat
When the light bids farewell to the darkness is when my art sprouts
I want to grow, to know a thousand cultures to improve my skills

To have adventures
With whoever shares my craziness
That I’ve kept hidden, I don’t know where
I’m going to reach the top so I can be much closer to you
And even though I know I won’t see you in life, one day we’ll be together there

In the meantime, you’ll be my guardian angel
My light and my ruby
After all, it’s you
The person I tell everything about me
And that hurts, hurts
Like it hurts me

Not being able to explain certain things because you know that even if they listen, they won’t understand
And it hurts, hurts
Thinking that those
I loved so much left one day without looking back even knowing they did it for good and forever
And it hurts, hurts
Like it hurts me

Thinking that I didn’t know how to tell you in life all that I loved you and now I can’t have you
And that hurts, hurts
It hurts to think you left too soon
And that my kids won’t have the chance to love you

Like it hurts me, hurts
Like it hurts me, hurts
Like it hurts me, hurts
Like it hurts me, hurts
Like it hurts me
That you’re no longer here
My guardian angel
I love you