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Who are you, that I can't save myself
Accursed doll, punishment from God...
A gust of wind that tears apart yesterday in its fury
Of tenderness, of home, and of faith...
Because of you my life has changed
-sacred and simple like a prayer-
Into a barbaric horror of problems
That clogs my veins and clouds my honor.

I can't be more vile
Nor can I be better,
Defeated by your spell
That disrupts my duty...
Because of you, to my wife
I have destroyed her life
And all the luxury I have given you
Is the bread of my two children.
I couldn't react
Nor can I understand,
Lost in the storm
Of your voice that bewitched me...
The silk of your skin that shivers me
And as it beats, it flourishes, with my downfall...

Determined to erase with a shot
Her accursed shadow that is already an obsession,
I have searched in my night for a place to die,
But the weapon loosens in betrayal...
I don't know if I deserve this fierce disgrace,
But instead I have come to know
That it's a lie that I don't kill myself
Thinking of my children... no, I do it for you...